Life is full of suprises. Some are more pleasant than others. I always do my best to smile my way through whatever challenges I might face. Easy enough sometimes, but in some cases it’s almost impossible. I want to be strong and I need to be strong especially now. Even though I’m an adult, moved out and have my own life I still feel a bit helpless now. I am still hopeful for the future though. It will bring many more pleasant moments. I’m surrounded by people who will always have my back. I love them all and I know they love me too. My situation now is unexpected and new to me. But I will learn and I will grow with this experience. I know there is going to be a bright future ahead of this mess. My father made his own decision and we cannot change that. He have said his final goodbye and now we must let him go and accept that he is no longer anongst us. I will miss my dad, my hero and my supporter in everything.
He was loved and respected by a lot of people. Serveral bouquets of flowers have already arrived at our door. We have all the support we need and we are together in this. I will be challenged on my patience with my mother and brother now. All the decision we are facing is quite a bit to handle. I’m trying to accept their sorrow, frustration and helplessness, but at the same time I easily become agitated because of their passiveness, indecisiveness or the speed of which they are doing things. I need to control my temper and grow ny patience and ability to listen. Now I see that this is one of my very most important challenges here and now. The practical stuff will be sorted somehow at some point. My actions and communication with my family will only work, if I make it work. Please let me have the strength to be the best daughter and sister in this phase of their lives.